Unemployment Sounds Great Friday, Aug 1 2008

Sooo….I was officially laid off last week! It was all very sudden and pretty shocking.  Looking back now, I guess I should have seen the signs. When your boss doesnt give a fudge about his business and is too busy trying to get his rocks off, that’s a major red flag!

I found out on Thursday, and I was very upset the first couple of days. But by the weekend, I felt so much better and was totally over it.  I had already planned on going to back to school to start my pre-requisites for OT, so this came at the most awesome time. It’s funny, the day I got the boot, I was about to register for classes at the JC. I think God was planning this for quite some time and was watching my back.  So I’ll be working until the end of August and then I get some severance and my unused vacation days.  I’ll also be collecting unemployment, so I’m not in a panic to find my next job.  I’m just really excited for the future and to start my new life. I’m excited to go back to school and learn new things.  It’s crazy how you’re life can change in a matter of a few moments.  I’m so lucky to have parents who are supportive and friends who are always there for me. Thanks, Girls!! I love you all!!

Now, time to complain about the 1 person that is on my hit list, and turned my life upside down and threw a bit of a wrench into my plans.   My boss.  I’ve been an employee for this company for 3 years! He goes and sells the company and doesn’t tell anybody what he’s planning on doing. I understand this is business, and I’m not bitter or mad about being laid off. I think it’s the biggest blessing to come my way! What I am angry about is his total disregard for all the people that work at this company.  He has no respect for anybody! He is the most selfish, stupid man I have ever come across in a loooooooong time.  He touts himself for being a great business man when all he is is the BIGGEST bullshitter and liar. He has no brains and cannot do anything for himself. He’s like a helpless little child. He will go unnamed but his name rhymes with BITCH, which is totally fitting!

He’s obviously been feeling guilty because he always gets super defensive if anyone here discusses what has happened recently.  He approached me today and asked me to send him my resume because, ” I know a lot of people..I can help..you know, I’m not a bad guy.” YEAH YOU ARE! I want nothing from him, and I don’t NEED his help. HE COULD NEVER HELP ME. You know why? Because I’m smarter and more talented than he EVER will be. So he can just SUCK IT! The only mistake I’ve made is staying at this wretched company for so long. So long promotional products! I’m done with you FOREVER.

When I got laid off he approached me to have a little “private” discussion, which I guess was so that he can defend himself and justify his actions.  His words, “I’m 48 years old, Annie, what could I do?” You know what, everyone has choices in life. You can either make the right one , or the wrong one.  Difficult decisions are difficult, DUH! But there’s always a respectable way to make a diffcult decision! That’s what’s wrong with America. People don’t think about their actions and the repercussions. People don’t care and are ALWAYS looking out for #1. Selfish a**holes.

Anyway, that’s what has been going on in my life for the people who don’t know. I’m still scared for the future because it is a bit unknown and for the obvious economic hardships I may face, but I know everything will be all right!

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Girls are Dumb Thursday, Jun 26 2008

Don’t get me wrong, I know the post sounds like I’m hating on my own gender, but if anyone knows me, they know that I am a girls girl.  I’ve just noticed a lot of girls acting mucho foolish lately.  Of course I don’t name names, but there seems to be a surge of dumbassness.  I think it’s probably the weather…the heat is making people crazy.

I’ve noticed that most of the troubles that these women are having is due to a man.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I know people will always have issues and problems in relationships. Duh! It’s a part of it.  But I’ve noticed that a lot of these chicks are just letting guys step all over them and treat them like shit. Well, I have news for you. YOU’RE letting them.  A bad guy will always be a bad guy. That’s what makes them bad guys! No one can ever MAKE you feel a certain way…you’re giving them permission to! I think Eleanor Roosevelt said something along the lines of that.  I know it’s not always so easy, especially in dealing with matters of the heart. You get super attached and emotional and it’s not easy letting go. Love isn’t black and white I realize.  BUt seriously! Please stop being emotional masochists! Take control, dammit! Get over whatever delusions you have!

And before someone accuses me of being bitter, I’m not bitter. I’m just a realist. And I’m trying to help. There are nice guys out there, but a lot of the time they are overshadowed by the not-so-nice guys.  There will always be some guy out there..waiting to break your heart.  But I guess life is full of lessons and they need to be learned the hard way.

Hana and I were talking the other day, and she came up with a great idea! She said that if you ever meet a guy, always assume that they’re taken. Let them prove that they aren’t! Lol. It’s kind of sad but true. A LOT of guys out there are hitting on you but are either married, engaged or have a girlfriend. What shady mothafudgers!

Well, that’s all! Hope no one gets uber pissed at my entry, and sorry if you do!

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Suck an Egg Thursday, Jun 19 2008

That has been my sentiment for the past couple of weeks. I feel very annoyed at everything and so unmotivated.  I’m tired because I’ve been getting pretty crappy sleep for the past week now. I can’t sleep because it’s hot and I always wake up at 6 every morning because someone is making noise! I need sleep. I need at least 8 hours of sleep a night or I am one cranky, grouchy bitch. I need my sleep, dammit!

What is definitely not helping my crankiness is the valley heat! It is currently 103 degrees and it’s not even noon! I had to turn on the air condition first thing this morning because it was only 8:30 am and it was already 95 degrees! This is what I hate about the valley. I hate this damn heat and nasty air! UGH! I need a Valium to relax so I won’t pull out my own hair.

 

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I Have Problems Tuesday, May 13 2008

I think the title of this entry totally sums it up. I have problems. Mental problems..hahaha. No, but seriously I’ve been doing a lot of searching lately.  I’m trying to figure out what I want to do with my life..and lemme tell you…that shit is not easy! I don’t think high school or college teaches you anything. NOTHING! I can tell you I learned absolutely nothing in getting my bachelors.  I came out of college thinking it would be really easy just to find a job and make money and live happily ever after. I was so stupid and naive. I just came out even more confused.  Now the past 4 years kinda feels like a waste. I’ve worked consistently, but not doing anything I really love. 

Now I’m trying to find something I would love to do and really find a career. My parents loooooove pressuring me to do some bullshit that would be definitely steady and get me great money…but nothing I love. I don’t want to work for the IRS. I don’t know how many times I’ve told my mom that. She thinks that’s something I would be really great at..but I totally beg to differ. I don’t want to work the rest of my life at the damned IRS. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. I need to find something I love to do, or at least REALLY like..or I would burn out so fast. I’m the kind of person that cannot stand something like that. I don’t want to wake up everyday not wanting to go to work. That freakin sucks! Life is just way too short.

So I’ve been thinking of going back to school for Occupational Therapy. Glo has totally been supportive and helpful.   But for some reason, something is holding me back.  I feel hesitant. I think that maybe I’m just scared.  Scared to fail, and scared that I just won’t be good enough. Maybe I’m just too lazy to do hard work. But I don’t really think that’s it. I’m lazy..but not THAT lazy.  Occupational therapy seems so great, because I’ve always wanted to help people. I’ve always had that desire, but never really knew HOW to go about doing that. I’m not into making TONS of money and living some lavish life.  I’ve honestly never been like that. Of course everyone likes nice, beautiful things, but that isn’t what life is about. When you finally leave this earth, you don’t take anything with you. So you can have all the bullshit on this planet. Cars, electronics, money, shoes, clothes, purses, makeup (I added that because I buy too much of that) and a bunch of other crap.  But all that will be left, is you and what you’ve done with your time on this planet.  Don’t get me wrong..I would LOVE to win the lotto tomorrow. And I’m not even saying I wouldn’t spend part of the money on materialistic things. Of course I would! But I KNOW that if I had that much money, I would quit my job and do what I really want to do because now I have the resources.  So this is pretty much my dilemmia. I don’t know where I’m going, but I hope I figure it out soon because I’m really stressing out.

I’m also stressing about money! How come there never seems like there is never enough of it? I have some credit card debt that I would LOVE to get rid of. I feel like I’ve had it for so long. I know I have no one to blame but myself. YOU KNOW WHAT? Scratch that! I do have somenoe else to blame..but I do not even want to go there because my blood starts boiling and I want to literally stab someone.  I’ve been trying EXTREMELY hard to not go out on the weekends unless I have to. I’ve also been trying to not eat out so much during the week for lunch. It honestly feels like I am going nowhere.  I’m on this train to fucking NOWHERE. I’ve been trying since the beginning of this year..but I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle.  I need help. I need just enough money to just fall out of the sky.  I get paid and I swear all the money is gone within a couple days because I’m just paying bills. Okay, I’m totally stressed out again. I’m going to stop thinking about this!

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The Diving Bell and Butterfly Tuesday, May 6 2008

Everyone must rent The Diving Bell and Butterfly.  It was an excellent movie. Check it out!

It’s the true story of Elle magazine editor, Jean-Dominique Bauby, who suffers a massive stroke.  After his stroke, he is paralyzed from head to toe.  He hears and understands what everyone says to him, but he cannot respond because he can no longer speak.  He only has movement in his left eye.  His speech therapist develops a way for him to communicate by blinking with his left eye. Using his only way of communication, he is able to have his memoir written and published.

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Friday, May 2 2008

Happy Friday, everyone! This week went pretty quickly for me.  Good luck to Glo, Alisa and Jeymi who are finishing up their semesters in school. I know Jeymi is already done, and Alisa is graduating in like 2 weeks. Yay ladies!

So, I went to school with Glo on Monday.  I’m interested in possibly applying to the OT program at CSUDH, so I thought it would be a good idea to see Glo in action.  I am so not used to being in school anymore. My mind and body were pooped after the day was over! I’m still deciding if I should apply, because I have several fears and concerns about entering the program. But, Glo is very encouraging and thinks that I can totally do it, so…we’ll see!

The rest of this week was pretty uneventful and boring. Work as usual.  Yesterday I went to the mall to buy foundation for my mom because she is totally out, and didn’t have time to go get it for herself.  I was waiting at the Lancome counter for a while because the makeup people take forever.  I finally got someone to help me and since I’m not really familiar with Lancome makeup products, I had to ask the lady a few questions to make sure I bought the correct foundation.  I told her, “Yeah, I just want to make sure it’s the right one because it’s for my mom.”  She then proceeded to say, “Yeah, I was gonna say…it’s a little too much for you.”  This comment gave me great pause and then I proceeded to feel miffed. My first thought was..this bitch is dissing on me and my zits.  I’m assuming she is saying it’s a bit too much because it’s really rich and would cause me to break out more.  This kinda irritated me a little. Why do makeup counter ladies assume they can just say watever the fuck they want to you? Do you know me? Do you know my life? You don’t know why I break out!! Just let me buy the shit and go. You aren’t paying for it! I didn’t come here to have you say a damn word to me.  If I were buying a completely wrong product for me, that’s my damn prerogative! I’m sorry. I’m just so sick of cosmetic people doing this to me! This has totally not been the first time. AHHHHHHHHH…it’s okay.

I got a new phone! It came today. I got the enV2 in Maroon. I like it a lot.  It’s pretty much like my old phone, but it’s slimmer and just better. I didn’t even know Verizon was releasing a new phone.  But I happened to check the Verizon website on Wednesday and that’s when they released it! I went to the store after work and actually played with it a little so I could see if I was completely sure I wanted to buy it.  I was going to buy the Voyager because I felt like I didn’t have that many options because I HAVE to have a QWERTY keypad.  I only spend like $100 on this phone after taxes and everything.  And I got free shipping. YAY! I’m happy. I desperately needed a new phone because old one had a busted ass screen. 

So after work me, Hana and Irene are going to Red Lobster to eat dinner. Me and Hana were looking at the menu and totally drooling. I have never been before and the commercials on tv look so freakin good! Tomorrow morning I’m going to be cleaning Stone Peak on Topanga Canyon for 3 freakin hours. One of the sales people at work volunteered all of us at work without asking us! I was like…Great…JUST GREAT. I guess it’ll be my good deed for the next 10 years. LOL.  I guess that’s everything that is going on. Everyone have an awesome weekend.

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Castrate Him Tuesday, Apr 29 2008

This is a sick sad world. The things people do to each other is appalling.  I’m sure everyone has heard about what happened in Austria. I think that that dirty, filthy, insane and cruel man should be castrated! I don’t care that he’s 73 years old.  He needs to face the consequences of what he has done.  He has essentially ruined the lives of 7 people. 

I can say that a lot of things do not surprise me anymore.  Everyday people are getting raped, molested, beaten,and tortured.  It doesn’t even surprise me when it’s caused  by a family member.  But this case is particularly disgusting because this man abused his own daughter for 31 years and held her prisoner for 24 of those years.  He didn’t allow three of his own kids/grandkids to ever see sunlight. What kind of evil is in this man? He so obviously planned everything out.  He created his own secret torture chamber.  This is the craziest shit I have heard in a really long time.  I feel so bad for all the victims.  My heart aches for them.  I pray that they can live the rest of their lives with a semblance of normalcy. 

It’s cases like this that make me believe in capital punishment.  I want nothing but justice for the victims and for the victimizer to be punished to the fullest.  I believe that someone who can inflict this much pain and suffering deserves to die.  I know there are so many people who disagree me.  But I strongly feel that you deserve whatever you dish out.  I guess he will be punished in his afterlife. 

I hate the world today. I hate everything about it. I’m sad their lives have been ruined even before they had a chance to live. 

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Tuesday, Apr 22 2008

I’m annoyed! I just wrote a post and I pressed “Publish”, but it didn’t publish. Son of a bitch! Well, I’m not writing it again. Piece of shit.

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OMFG Friday, Apr 18 2008

So, for those of you who do not live under a rock, I am sure you have seen the latest commercial advertisements for new episodes of the CW show, Gossip Girl.  Now, I have never seen even one minute of this show, because it looks like a East Coast version of The O.C.  I know it’s by the same creator and I am too old to be watching shit like that. 

The latest commercials features snippets of upcoming episodes, and it flashes the letters “OMFG.” All the snippets are sexually based and extremely risque in my opinion.  One features a young couple who obviously just had sex, and the guy asks the girl, “So, how was I?” And the girl responds by shrugging her shoulders and saying, “I don’t know.” What kind of shit is this?? I know this show’s target audience is 13-25 year olds.  Where are those groups formed by parents that watch out for these shows and complain when it’s too nasty?? How come I don’t hear one damn person complaining about this shit? This is why kids are having sex at 9 years old! They see this garbage on the television and go to school and decide to have some sex orgies! I guess I really am getting old. But seriously..this is too much! It’s just too much. Kids watch this and want to replicate it because it looks fun and cool. And you know kids are fucking stupid as hell.

I am tired of watching overprivileged white kids complain about how they have so many problems because they are too attractive, too rich and extremely bored. This is bullshit. I hope this show gets pulled off the air because it looks like a load of crap. I know it’s just a T.V. show, but I feel that there should at least be some standards that they should follow.  There has to be a point where it is just too much.  That’s why kids are getting worse these days! That’s why I read the news and I am just shocked by the things kids do. 

Now I understand why my mom didn’t want me to watch Melrose Place or 90210 while I was growing up. But seriously..those shows are so freakin tame compared to what is out there now.  What happened to shows like, Saved by the Bell, The Cosby Show, Home Improvement, Roseanne, and The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air???! Those shows were so freakin funny! They need to make more shows like that. 

I’m done ranting and raving for the day I guess. But seriously, I am so sick to death at looking at stupid white people on television. Get some real freakin shows on there! There are more Mexican people than white people in the U.S. now..lol.  The only Mexican show I know of is the George Lopez show. But I don’t even know if that’s on the air anymore.  I know Gossip Girl has two “ethnic” girls on the show, but I think they play the head bitch’s minions.  That’s all we are good for?? Being minions?? Screw you the creator of Gossip Girl for putting only white people on your damned show.  Take a cue from LOST and put some people of color in your stupid show. I’m going to create my own show and only stick Asian people in it.  The only white people will be the maid or the gardener.  Heh. Like that would ever get on network television.

Anyway, Happy Friday! Everyone have a great weekend.

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AH! Wednesday, Apr 16 2008

I haven’t blogged in a week! The last blog was me talking about how I’m too old and this one will be about what a big fat ass I am. 

So this past weekend (I know, I’m a little late) was filled with me eating, eating and MORE eating.  On Friday we (me, Hana, Dolly, Irene and Toshi) went to Highlands.  I like to go to clubs to dance, but this time all we did was fucking drink! I think we may have danced for like 20 minutes and we drank enough to make my liver hurt.  Afterwards, Hana’s bro picked us up and we got a shitload of Taco Bell.  The club was fun, but hanging out at Hana’s bro’s apartment was even funnier. Hana tortured Dolly with a fake gun, and a pillow shaped like boobs.  I cracked up so hard I think I worked off the Taco Bell. 

Saturday morning/early afternoon, Hana and I went to Mimi’s Cafe to grab breakfast and I ate the Belgain wafffles. It was delish.  It was FUCKING hot..like 95 degrees. We decided to head to Irene’s because I left my ID with her.  We lounged in her room with her AC and just talked and was being big lazy asses.  We then decided that we weren’t hungry but we wanted to eat, so we headed to Jerry’s deli. I ate a bagel with cream cheese and chili cheese fries. So freakin random, but it was so good.  I was so tired so we headed home and I knocked out early. 

Sunday, I got up early and went to church. Then, me, Hana and Dolly headed over to Simi Valley to pick up Sergio and Jim and to go eat at Los Dos Amigos in Thousand Oaks.  Sergio’s parents cook at the restaurant, and the food is so yummers that I am drooling just typing this.  I think I was so stuffed from the weekend that I was not hungry AT ALL later that night. 

 I am a big fat ass who eats too much. Why must food be so good?? I don’t believe these healthy food eaters who say they love healthy food. LIARS. You are all liars!!! You know all you want is some damn good junk food. Sigh. I try to eat healthy, but that lasts for like 2 meals.  I wish I was one of those twiggy ass bitches who can eat and eat and not gain a pound. What lucky asses.

BTW…I cuss way too much.  I know..I KNOW! Everyone reading this already knows what a cuss machine I am, but I can’t help it.  Cussing gets your point across very clearly. Instead of saying, “I’m so mad” you can say ,”I’m so FUCKING mad!” It emphasizes how mad you are. BUT I realize…I have been cussing a lot lately. It’s always, fuck this, fuck that. Sheesh. I need help for my potty mouth. What will I do if I ever have kids? Kids are like sponges, they soak up all sorts of shit stuff.  There is no hope for me!

I’m going to go watch “The Mist” now. I’m sure I will blog about it!

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